My Second Umrah 28.5.2011 -Part 2 Saie

Assallamualaikum w.r.t. & Greetings

1. Feels very happy with myself for completing an exceptionally good tawaf .. :)

2. Me and son wait in the prayer hall in front of Kaaba while my husband perform his Tawaf.

3. While waiting, me & Huzai got severe scolding by a general worker in alien language (Urdu ??) for misbehaving . Feels very low... :(


Pic : My husband and son after completing the tawaf during mid day around 200pm: temperature 47 Celcius.

4. Now, me proceed to perform my Sa'ie while my husband and son wait in the prayer hall. Sa'ie consists of 7 turns between Bukit Safa and Bukit Marwah.

5. Start my Sa'ie at Bukit Safa. Still deeply affected by the scolding .. :(.

6. Do my intentional for Sa'ie and recite a little zikr Subhanallah, Alhamdullilah, Allahuakbar.

7. Performed my Sa'ie with very low spirit, low concentration and very little zikr. Focusing instead on feeling of despair. Feeling of never been able to do anything right. Feeling of always making mistake. This goes on for almost 3 turns.

8. On 3rd -4th turns; read little zikr, and the intense feelings change from despair to doubt. Wondering whether the act of prayers towards the Kaabah is similar to the act of idol worshipping. Questioning why we all have to come to Makkah to perform the Umrah/Hajj. Afterall, Allah is not in Makkah and Allah is not in Kaabah. What is so special about Kaabah that we have to come all the way to Makkah to pray? Might as well pray in my own hometown, Malaysia.. *.*

9. On 5th turns; read little zikr, and the feelings change from doubt about the Kaabah, the Umrah etceteras to wondering whether Allah is actually an allien. And the final straw is the question whether Allah actually exists. When the final question on Allah existence echoed in my brain/heart, I immediately realised I have been fooled by Iblis.

10. Please note that, I have always have strong faith in Allah, and I have declared and vowed my faith during my second tawaf. And, as I mentioned in earlier, my tawaf was exceptionally good, moving, earth shattering, beyond of this world .. experience. All I can say is Alhamdullilah ...


11. On 6th-7th turns; I opened my little guiding book from Tabung Haji Travel & Tours, and start reading the prayer and Doa recomended during Sa'ie. Surprise .. surprise, the prayers are for protection from Iblis. This time around, I really focused on my prayers and doa. And I pray very hard for Allah protection from Iblis.

12. This experience is particularly scary for me. I do not know if I manage to convey it succesfully in this blog. And, I almost did not want to performed my third umrah due to this experience. HOWEVER, i do understand that we must not fear anything else BUT Allah, otherwise we could fall under Syirik which is the only sin Allah will not forgive.

13. Hasbunallahu Wa Ni'mal Wakil - Cukuplah Allah sebagai penolong ku. Amin.

My Conclusions:

1. Iblis is a formidable enemy. As such, we must always seek Allah protections from Iblis.
2. Kaabah is Allah house. It is the first mosque build in this world and was built by Prophet Abraham and his son Prophet Ishmael upon Allah instructions.
3.We went to performed Hajj/Umrah because Allah instructed us to visit his house and performed Umrah and Hajj so that we may regain knowledge.
4.Praying towards Kaabah is not an act of worshipping idols since we never requests anything from the Kaabah itself. It is just the direction for prayers.
5. We are human, and we will always make mistake. As such, we must always seek forgiveness from Allah and perform the solat sunat taubat regularly.
6. All mosque are house of Allah.
7. Iblis does not whisper in your ears, he whispers in your heart/brain.
8. Do not dwell in your problems, I fear Iblis will come and try his very best to deceived you.
9. What happened during Umrah/Hajj is directly related to our daily lives back in our hometown. All the knowledge gain during the Hajj/Umrah should be applied in our daily lives.

Mind Blowing

Assallamualaikum w.r.t and Greetings .. to everyone.

I have encounter this website called The Awakening Project talking about the illuminarti and the freemasons wanting to bring Dajjal al masih out into the world. I start following this website when i was in my previous workplace which happened to be highly stressful. So a relative suggested this website so that i can focus on something more stressful and forget my own stress.. lol. So i follow the website just for fun (and it is fun hehehe).

The illuminarti is the group responsible for world war I, world war II, 9-11 attack..etceteras. All these major catasthropic events is actually a sacrificial ritual design to make Dajjal Al Masih grow strong so that he will lead them to achieve their next agenda that is world domination (The New World Order) and eventually become gods themselves by defeating God Al Mighty.

And i do not take it seriously until I came across:

Quran Surah Baqarah 102 :

Dan mereka mengikuti apa yang dibaca oleh syaitan-syaitan pada masa kerajaan Sulaiman (dan mereka mengatakan bahawa Sulaiman itu mengerjakan sihir), padahal Sulaiman tidak kafir (tidak mengerjakan sihir), hanya syaitan-syaitan itulah yang kafir (mengerjakan sihir). Mereka mengajarkan sihir kepada manusia dan apa yang diturunkan kepada dua orang malaikat di negeri Babil iaitu Harut dan Marut, sedang kedua-duanya tidak mengajarkan (sesuatu) kepada seorang pun sebelum mengatakan :"sesungguhnya kami hanya cubaan (bagimu), sebab itu janganlah kamu kafir". Maka mereka mempelajari dari kedua-dua malaikat itu apa yang dengan sihir itu, mereka dapat menceraikan antara seorang (suami) dengan isterinya. Dan mereka itu (ahli sihir) tidak dapat memberi mudarat dengan sihirnya kepada seorang pun, kecuali dengan izin Allah. Dan mereka mempelajari sesuatu yang memberi mudarat kepadanya dan tidak memberi manfaat. Demi, sesungguhnya mereka telah meyakini bahawa sesiapa yang menukarnya (kitab Allah) dengan sihir itu, tiadalah baginya keuntungan di akhirat, dan amat jahatlah perbuatan mereka menjual dirinya dengan sihir, kalau mereka mengetahui.

You see, i study the illuminarti group origins (as published in the internet) and it trace back to the time during prophet Solomon.

And QS Baqarah 102 talk about satan groups during prophet Solomon. And, i believe the satan groups mention in the Quran is the Illuminarti.

And worst, If you study the illuminarti works over the years (plenty in the internet) ..you will realise that these people are very serious in their mission to bring Dajjal Al Masih out and to start the final battles and destroy the Kaabah ..huhu.

And guess who are the lucky opponents ... :(

My 2nd Umrah 28.5.2011 -Part 1 tawaf

Assallamualaikum w.r.t. and Greetings dear family and friends..

28.5.2011 -Me, my hubby and son went to Ja'ranah (Miqat place) with our delima group to do the intentional for our second umrah. This time, only me and my husband perform the umrah. We agreed to take turn to perform the tawaf and saie so that we can take care of our son, Huzaifah.

11.00 am - enter Makkah from place of Miqat (Ja'ranah). As usual, after the intentional, my heart start feeling nervous and scared.

1.00 pm - perform the Tawaf by myself. My hubby and son wait in the prayer area. alone, very happy and nervous.

i) read my doa .. many -many doa for myself, my family, my friends as well as the muslimin and muslimat. Too many doa ..i am exhausted by my so many doa but i really hope/wish/pray that Allah will grant all my doa.. :) ... Ameen

ii) during 3rd tawaf -declare my faith to Allah and my believe in prophet Muhammad S.A.W. in front of Baitullah during the tawaf. this makes me cry .. very-very badly. The feelings is beyond words. highly recommended.

iii) read prayers for my parents, this action also make me cry badly. also highly recomended.

iv) read more doa for me, husband, families, friends and fellow muslimin and muslimat for worldly as well as afterlife pleasures and well-being. this action does not make me cry and i really-really-really wish that all my prayers are granted. Ameen.

v) declare my faith and pray for the well being of my parents again. cry very badly ..feelings undescribable... out of this world. highly recommended.

After completing my rounds of Tawaf, i performed solat sunat tawaf in front of Kaabah. i experience something strange here, my feet feels on fire (only my feet, the rest of me feels comfy). I pray to Allah to remove the scorching heat on my feet so that i may perform my solat sunat and my prayers was granted immediately. I have no explanation for this, i guess its because my husband regularly remind me to put on stockings and i regularly forgot. I do not think it is because i did not covered my aurat because i saw so many ladies especially the indians and iranians does not cover their feet and their feet do not seem to be on fire. Wallahu'allam.

POINTS TO PONDER:

(1) Please take note of the followings to ensure your tawaf is valid:

i) Always make sure your left shoulder facing Kaabah
ii) Never hide your face during tawaf - in other words, you have to cry in the open ..heehee.
iii) Always maintain your intentional for tawaf - ie you must not panick if you get lost and
you must not go looking for your families, group etc to avoid changing of intentional.
iv)If your tawaf is invalid -you have to redo the invalid round.

(2) Observations:

i) It is wise to let group of big old ladies with linked arms get past you during the tawaf. I believe these ladies are scared of getting lost from their groups, families, husband etceteras and if you happended to be in the way ..you may be in danger of being pushed and your left shoulder will no longer face Baitullah for long period of time (if your left shoulder does not face Kaabah for long period eventhough unintentional,your round of tawaf will be invalid). Worst you could fall and get injured.

(3) This article is just an account of my spiritual journey from my point of view. This is not an Islamic teaching.

My First Umrah 26.5.2011

Assallamualaikum w.r.t. and greetings ..

The story continued ...

26/5/2011 (Thursday) - Friday night

2.00pm -Me, my husband and my eldest son continue our journey from Madinah to Mekah by bus. We stop in Bir Ali to do intentional for umrah. After the intentional, all the 13th prohibition start. I don't know why but once i perform my intentional for umrah, my heart start beating very fast. I become quite nervous and somewhat scared. It is also the same when i performed my second and third umrah. In addition to that, my scalp start to itch, so is my nose. I have to control myself from scratching for fear of breaking any one of the 13th prohibitions during umrah.

8.30pm - We reached Mekah and check-in to our hotel. Hotel Hajeej is about 300m from Masjidil Haram. My son burst into tears and throw a tantrum when we first enter our room. "He scream hotel pecah. Lets go back to the hotel ".. :) (he meant the 5 star hotel Anwar Movenpick in Madinah). Our hotel is clean but it is an old hotel. The window airconditioning unit was quite noisy and there is no room service during our stay in Mekah. I explain to my son as long as we are together as a family then we should be thankful. And he calm down.

10.30pm -went to masjidil haram. saw Kaabah for the first time. my first prayer that come to mind is that may Allah grant me heaven. I have always imagine this moment, and when the moment come i don't feel anything. I used to imagine that my first time seeing Kaabah in real will make me faint or something.. at least dropped to my knees in tears. But i do not feel anything, i worry for my self. Some of my group members start crying and me ... getting more worried for my soul. (btw .. i get tougher tests in my second umrah, that is when i really cried and appreciate kaabah - i will write about my second umrah in my next entry insha'allah. and please do not be afraid of the tests because from these tests Allah teaches/guide us how to carry on in our daily lives and the feelings we get afterwards is beyond words. This is the reasons why people keep wanting to performed the umrah and hajj eventhough they know they will be tested)

11.00pm - we performed the tawaf led by our mutawif. Me and my husband and son got separated in the sea of people. I am panicking but i don't dare to look for my husband and son because i am afraid if i lost my group, i will be totally lost. I am confident that my husband and son will be okay BUT i am not so confident about myself. During my tawaf, i pray to Allah for their safety and that we will be regroup again. True enough, we regroup again and me and my husband and my son continue the tawaf. We inform the rest of the group to went ahead to performed the saie and not to wait for us because we are very slow ..heehee. We finally went to performed the saie and completed it sometime just before subuh prayer. For your information, my son do not want to walk so my husband has to carry him all the time.

3.30am - just completed the saie and my husband and son went to the barber's shop to perform the tahallul (bergunting). Then we went back to the hotel, where i performed my tahallul. Now the 13th prohibition has been lifted. Guess what, i lose 3 hairs during the ihram ..so i have to pay the dam -SR30.00 ..heehee. Anyway ... I am immensely happy and satisfied for completing my first umrah.

4.ooam - performed the subuh prayer in Masjidil Haram.

5.00am - went back to hotel to eat breakfast.

6.00am - call Malaysia to ask how Hanzallah my youngest son is doing.

6.30am -finally went to sleep. what a full day it is. we actually did not sleep the whole 24 hrs.

Points to ponder:

(1) i believe our first umrah is a test on our physical and mental strength.

(2) i didn't know that umrah is wajib. i have always thought it as sunat. and i also thought that umrah ziarah is some sort of holiday. i am so ignorant.

(3) Just sharing :

Surah Al -Baqarah :196

" Dan sempurnakanlah ibadat haji dan umrah kerana Allah "

Surah Al- Hajj : 27-29

"Dan serukanlah kepada umat manusia untuk mengerjakan ibadat haji, nescaya mereka akan datang ke ( rumah tuhanmu) dengan berjalan kaki, dan dengan menunggang berjenis-jenis unta yang kurus yang datangnya dari berbagai-bagai jalan (ceruk rantau)

Supaya mereka menyaksikan berbagai-bagai perkara yang mendatangkan berbagai-bagai faedah kepada mereka, serta memperingati dan menyebut nama Allah pada hari-hari tertentu, kerana pengurnaiaanNya kepada mereka dengan binatang-binatang ternak (untuk dijadikan korban) dengan demikian makanlah kamu dari (daging) binatang-binatang korban itu dan berilah makan kepada orang yang susah, yang fakir miskin.

Kemudian hendaklah mereka membersihkan diri mereka, dan hendaklah mereka menyempurnakan nazar-nazar mereka, dan hendaklah mereka tawaf akan Baitullah (Kaabah) yang tua sejarahnya itu.


feels happy .. :) :) :) ... Alhamdullilah ...

My wonderful journey to Madinah

Assallamualaikum w.r.t. and greetings to all dear family and friends.

I believe this picture is taken at the entrance gate to raudhah for ladies -gate no. 25 Ibnu Affan

i would like to share my wonderful journey during my first umrah with my family between 23/5 - 3/6 2011.

23/5 - 12.30 pm malaysian time -me, my husband and my eldest son gather at the KLIA airport to check in with our group to perform the Umrah. Very excited. Performed solat zohor and asar (Jamak Taqdim and Qasar)

23/5 -7.30pm arrived in Jeddah Airport. The time difference between Saudi Arabia and Malaysia is about 5 hrs with Malaysia receiving the sunlight first. :)

23/5 -10.00 pm boarding the tour bus to Madinah. We stop along the way to performed the Jamak & Qasar Maghrib and Isyak prayer. The place is located in the middle of nowhere. There are a few dusty looking arabs (?) and stray dogs. There are 1 surau and roughly 2 medium size shops building surrounded by nothing.

23/5 - Journey to Madinah - 5 hours journey through nothing, nothing, checkpoint, nothing, nothing, checkpoint until we finally reach Madinah. Amazing .. there are no small towns, no villages, no trees, no grass, etc..etc along the road only strecth of barren lands, rocky hills, short very dry looking trees. I used to wonder why arabs don't develop their country as industriously as malaysian. Malaysia is always about development ..development and more development. I am begining to understand why ... there is just nothing to do. The Quran told us to perform Umrah and Hajj and to Fanzuru ie to look/see. I start to appreciate Malaysia my home country. I also kept wondering why Allah place his holy house in this barren land.

23/5 - 3.00am - Enter Madinah and start reciting prayers to enter Madinah. Madinah - my prophet Muhammad town. Then check-in to a 5 star hotel Anwar Madina Movenpick.

23/5 -3.50am - Performed Subuh prayer in Masjid Nabawi where my prophet is. The mosque was so full, i pray on the floor (no carpet) almost at the door entrance/exit. And I have people dirty looking shoes in transparent plastic bag near my head where i sujud ... mmm. This never happened in Malaysia. Nevertheless .. I am extremely Happy :). More over, pahala prayer in Masjid Nabawi (prophet mosque) is 1000x pahala prayer in any other mosque except Masjidil Haram.

To be continued ... Wassallam.

p/s - i do not wish to offend anybody or any races. If you find this article offensive ..please inform and i will stop writing.. Or i will write in malay ... :)

I Am ...

I Am ...

How r u people? .. happy .. stress .. sad .. angry ...tired ..etc..etc..

Me ... most likely happy and tired ... that why this I Am ...post. I am trying to transform my negative energy to positive energy.

I just want to share a few things i have learn in the last 2 and 1/2 years.

1. If you think you can, its true and if you think you cannot, its also true. So choose your thinking wisely my friend.

2. When ever you feel sickly, stress, tired etc..etc.. , stop and think about what you really love .. it could be your family etc..etc ..you will feel better immediately.

3. Hidup bertuhan .. berkomunikasi dengan Allah tentang semua perkara. Allah maha mengetahui .. jadi mohon dan bertawakallah kepada Allah. (Hasbunallah hu wa ni'mal wakil - cukuplah Allah sebagai penolongku)

4. Bersyukur dengan segala nikmat yang diterima (Alhamdullilah - segala puji bagi Allah)

5. Redha dengan ketentuan Allah (Inna lilahi Wa Ilaihi Rajiun - Dari Allah kami datang dan kepada Allah kami kembali).

I want to make my post ..happy ..happy but it turn out very serious ... i must be very tired indeed ...kuang3x

bye ..for now ..

Pengurusan Tekanan Mental

Assallamualaikum w.r.t dan Salam Sejahtera,

Its been a long time since i last posted anything on my blog. I blame it on facebook ..hehehe .. nowadays everybody prefer facebook to blog.

So hari ini sa nak share a few things that i learned from Bengkel Pengurusan Tekanan Mental i have attend.

1. Penyakit mental khususnya penyakit negatif thinking is one of the punca kepada penyakit fizikal seperti sakit jantung, gastrik, sembelit dan tak mustahil penyakit kanser juga.
2. Penyakit negatif thinking boleh dihentikan melalui latihan berterusan. Everytime ada negatif thinking, STOP and replace with positif thinking.
3. Sembahyang tahajud merupakan satu cara pengurusan tekanan mental.

Saja nak share:

1. Seorang nenek yang badan dia dah bongkok 3 (mungkin sebab tak minum susu Anlene .. ). She always says Alhamdullillah ..syukur kerana masih boleh berjalan. Mudah2an panjang umur supaya boleh tengok cucu2 besar. She is one happy old lady ... cth positif thinking.

2. Seorang wanita di usia 40-an yang mempunyai sifat2 yang tidak baik akibat oleh penyakit negatif thinking seperti suka bersangka buruk dan mengumpat telah meninggal dunia kerana penyakit kanser... cth negatif thinking.

Well, kedua-dua contoh di atas merupakan kisah benar dan bukan rekaan. Jadi sama-samalah kita mengambil iktibar. Wallahuallam.

So my Friends .. STOP negative thinking.. START positive thinking .. hehehe

p.s. 1 : Bila ada negatif thinking, body organ does not function well, hence all the toxic yang sepatutnya kena flushed out of our body system tidak kena keluarkan. Bila badan toxic maka penyakit pun datang ..kuang3x.

p.s.2 : Cara mudah sembahyang tahajud. Solat sunat 2 rakaat sebelum azan subuh. Niat solat sunat tahajud.